I really wish

that I could feel something. It's been a while and I haven't felt any sort of way. Someone could be pleasant or fun but it won't make me happy. I guess desire could be considered a feeling, and since I 'desire' to feel something it doesn't quite make sense. I want to feel overwhelmed with happiness. I want to smile so big it hurts and feel safe and wonderful and infinite all at once. I wish a person could fix this but I know it's bigger than that.