Because that’s what it does.
Expectations can be cruel. High hopes and harsh lows. If you know what to expect from a person, then where does disappointment come from? I’ve been struggling with this question for quite some time now. This whole thing is like a migraine. When I have one all I can think about is how I take my usual non-aching existence for granted. But as soon as it’s gone I forget I even had it. It’s illogical to think that life is not worth living because I know that every now and then I’m going to suffer from migraines, so why should I think differently of relationships? I fear them because I fear the lows. Without them there is nothing to lose. Loving a person is hard enough as it is, but then add on dedicating yourself to them and spending most of your time with that person and making them such an important aspect of your life. Can’t we just love and be loved from afar? Perhaps I’m not as over my past relationships as I thought. The wounds have healed but the unsightly scar remains. Maybe I just need a tattoo inked over it. Yes it will still be there, but I won’t have to look at it everyday and be reminded of how a relationship can potentially end up.
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