You'll drown quicker than we intended.
I'm convinced that my mother wants me to be sad. She has turned me into a cynic and has convinced me that there is no such thing as sincerity in this world. No matter what, someone has an ulterior motive. I can't just accept anything anymore. She has even ruined gifts for me. She fucking researched a gift that I received and reveled in her discovery that there was a potential for lack of meaning and sincerity in it. She called me immediately to tell me of her findings.
I got half depressed yesterday. There was so much mention about Christmas and the holidays. I wish I could be a kid again. Everything seemed fair and wonderful. It wasn't though. It isn't. If I have it my way, I won't receive a single gift for Christmas this year. I want a year off. Unfortunately I already got one person something. I'm probably going to give it to him simply as an apology for the shitty calendar gift from '05 :)
My friends suck terribly sometimes. Lying to me, judging me/hypocrisy, lying some more, sneaking behind my back to spy on me, throwing hissy fits, being manipulative, taking advantage, putting me down, trying to make me look bad. That doesn't sound right. Shitty friends...
I'm dedicating the rest of this day to studying and relaxing. Disregard my rsvp. I'm flying solo tonight.
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